There's No Joy in Mudville

Part of my days now are watching the towns and cities i once lived in or near, or sometimes visited, burn. I dont want to be Nero but i do believe modern vandals are more or less responsible, unlike the great washington national monument pond, being ruined when trump ran his motorcade over it.

I haven't figured yet if the rope a dope country of iran is genius amongst idiots or, if eventually, the idiots will take it beyond the fifteenth round to its rightful might makes right conclusion. So far, it's a wash. not exactly tit for tat though, as the citizenry of many big and small civilizations are being bothered at the least or murdered at the other extreme by inconsistent political and societal norms.

and the natural world isn't being all that cooperative. it's been years since i was able to at least think about going somewhere in america or even the world without considering firestorms, climate extremes, earthquake, infrastructure failures. sometimes it does feel like the apocalypse and in some places, the apocalypse already came and went, leaving wide gaps as to where it will end up later. So far, where i live has only been surrounded by smoke, disasters, and even the heart of political turmoil.

in the past, i visited such places as cuba, turkey, chile, mexico, supposedly, the worst of the worst nowadays, and I came away from them liking most of what i saw there, and sometimes wishing i could move there (just daydreaming) and now america has helped close off the world to any enjoyment or curiousity, a real ball busting nation, we are. america just seems like i'ts become the epitome of puritanical evolution, (maybe that's what trump is talking about, "making america great again", or more likely, make america plymouth rock again, but change the thanksgiving day celebration to the ballroom, minus the Natives.

There's no joy in Mudville these days.

I don't know if i can stomach the lack of real hope in american politics these days, but it's getting harder to find it in regular people too, we've all been infested with the ill will of real fascism. Yes, it's true the guns here, at least, haven't been given full permission to shoot indiscriminately and often, they've meant to be more selective (meaning carelessly protected). Even though it's true, real hope (for change) is hard to come by, it seems pie falling from the sky (literally) reality from religious points of view is growing at an alarming rate.

The dour and the insane have taken over the pasture, leaving the flock to fend for itself, which it might be able to do if it weren't so fearful of being left to its own devices without a gun. 

I'm going to say it again, maybe in a different way. The revolution won't come from the barrel of a gun (because the gun has just become a new god to fear and must fall as well as the rest of their fake fears) and the part you really want to see won't be televised, podcasted, or even protested. Its already happening in many places and people are learning to live together (do i dare say, communally?)

It will be when we are ready to do the hard work of making new communities, new towns, as sustainable, free, and consensual as we can by joining with others who are also free, to get everything we need without the sheep worriers telling us we need them.

I'm not naive nor mad nor innocent

 I'm not naive nor mad nor innocent but I do know one thing, Change is hard to come by. It's far easier to think we can change everybody else who we think needs to change rather than think we are the ones who need to change. 'We think' is the very reason for the problems we all have, in our personal, our community, and political life. Over the decades and centuries, we've all been thrown together into a pit, governed by the exciting prospect of one day climbing free, or believing promises of getting freedom but not being free of them. But there is no more freedom right where you're standing than there is over the mountain, over the sea. We see freedom in the way we dress, the way we are colored, the way we walk, talk, and fuck. But no matter where we are, there are still toes we better not step on, or people we cannot cross but, in a way, that's all right, isn't it?

Freedom is chaos so we try to put restraints on it, mostly for everybody else. Where are the red lines we must not cross? Are they the ten commandments or the Bill of Rights? Is killing someone the same as coveting thy neighbor's wife? Is establishing a fascist government through the conventions of democracy the same as the violent overthrow of an established order? Are the rights of individuals the same as the rights of the social contract?

Defanged and declawed, a morality mired in self-indulgence, greed, and whether or not it's all right to compensate our shortcomings with violence, we are more like caged animals in the middle of an open-air prison.

When "god" created us, we were already ready for the slaughter, defanged, declawed, just had our wits and violent nature. we cannot tear our food nor catch our prey by claw but our genius is unlimited. It is time for retribution, recompensation, restitution but the evolutionary vault is empty, robbed many times over while we stood around like cows chewing their cud, regurgitating laws, standards, traditions, and punishments.

all my memories are attached to somebody, someplace and when that somebody dies or someplace disappears, that memory is like an electric spark generating a nostalgic sadness i can do nothing about, only can i cherish for only the moment until its gone, like remnants of a dream upon awakening. Once awake, i can no longer return.

Listening to Buffy St Marie's My Country Tis of Thee. She may be a fake Indian or, is it, fake Canadian but she got it right from her heart, which is the only place that matters.

Another warning. Get together and stick around with the ones you want to die with.

Remembering 2024

Don't want to get too far behind all this fast-paced breaking news.

First, the assassination attempt and now a week later, almost before trump took off his bandage prop (his ear looks fine, by the way). Second and third is Biden gets covid and then drops out of the race. How much covid had to do with it will be forgotten by history.

So it might be a Kamala Harris-donald trump battle for the white house. But is it any different than Biden-trump?

My problem with it is i've always seen Harris as a clone for whoever she has as a boss with little imagination to have an opinion of her own. It's true she can always claim she's a woman when the discussion comes down to power vested in the hands of men, take the sides of black, Indian, womanhood if she has a mind to, but the question is the same one every woman, black, brown, lgbtq, and man in america should answer to and that is, does america continue down its path of accepting genocide, sanction, military/weaponization of Nato and every ally, and continue to believe the hubric that america is the greatest and has always been the greatest nation on earth?

If she does, then like everyone else, politician and citizen alike, you may as well forsake whatever individualistic racial, gene code you go by because america is derived and implied and dependent on MEN's misunderstanding of the terms 'freedom' and 'justice' (for all of mankind).

As we get further and further along

As we get further and further along in this particular genocide, the emergence and reemergence of anti- holocaust and hero worship over resistance against the nazis, we, once again, slip into some sort of historical nostalgia that hardly anyone alive today lived through nor experienced.

The holocaust was horrible and those who survived or resisted it, especially in those countries who initially did nothing about it, or supported it, are brave indeed.

But as we witness the anti-semitic state of israel supported by the anti-semites of america, western nations, i'm wondering if there will be a day when all those gazans murdered not just over the last year, but throughout the decades preceding Oct 7th, 2023 will eventually be seen as victims too. That's history for you. You can't trust it, but we got to have it, it's our memory.

Of course, americans will confuse the issue by some harming innocent jews in synagogues and others just trying to get some justice for gazans, which will be a lifelong project. If there is any "good" in all this it's that old joe biden, old donald trump have been thrown together into the same historical pot and should henceforth be going forward into the past together as two different versions of the same problem.

Just like slavery, native genocide and ethnic cleansing, anti-humanitarian practices, there will be some reconciliation but not enough to satisfy.

This, of course, is not just an american problem because everything that happens is wrapped around the craving for money and resources. Look at the countries that thus far stood up initially to trumps deportation planes. There was bluff but once trump threatened sanctions and other economic punishments, capitulation was easy. 

Believe me, there is not one blessed humanitarian nation on earth that can or will stand on its own against this relentless international banking and corporate/fascist complex.

Big Questions

are we working our way back up the moral character ladder of determining which politician can say genocide, no rights to defend yourself when you are the oppressor, climate change is really an “existential” threat, and you know what “existential” actually means?

Maybe other big questions progressives should ask themselves while also failing to deal with whatever answers they come up with, is what is it that prevents many people from exercising their moral prerogative or the growing dissonance between what they see happening in the world and what they feel can actually be changed?

Most people feel powerless when it comes to making real social, cultural, or even personal change in their lives.

Two simple examples are riding a bike and eating healthy. Those two examples are practically revolutionary in a society dependent on cars, lack of space and time, and the devastating effects produced in a society that entices one to eat "filler" food, food that essentially has no nutritional value at all. The rise of type two diabetes, and other worldwide food and water-based issues, is tantamount to a pandemic. 

No, im not going to get into all the overriding and coinciding factors of why we are where we are, but if people rode bikes instead of their cars to go short distances and bought nutritional, natural food for their diet, we'd be on our way to changing from a system reliant on rampant brainwashing consumerism to politicking essential services. Cars will become obsolete and before they do, the entire road/transportation/car infrastructure will be more and more unusable.

Just yesterday one lone car with one crazy driver who refused to surrender shut down busy I-80 in both directions for several hours, this in addition to normal heavy traffic all day long in urban areas.

Theres an old saying -youre within walking distance from everything you need. Or everything you need is within walking distance from HERE. Or right now.

So start thinking how far away you want to be from yourself when the music stops?

Freedom Poem

 

freedom

 

So it is that most of the time we allow our over-crowded, claustrophobic cultural life,

that which includes all we eat, see, hear, breathe,

maybe love, to slowly seep into our bones,

creep inside all our thoughts and minds, even worse, our dreams

get under our skins,

yet somewhere along the line,

the unique being imprisoned inside all that wasteland, says "This is wrong," and

at that moment we have a choice to make, alone, and only alone can this be done.

If we decide to keep our blinders on, each time a little bit of freedom leaks,

until we become nothing but denial and deceit.

If we decide to stand, even though alone, and acknowledge this truth,

Which has risen from our soul, inopportune as it always been,

we can be truly free and can no longer be held imprisoned solely by our wants and desires.

But if instead, Fear resumes its hold, we can, merely go back to sleep,

keep on eating, praying, staying, always doing the same things the same old way,

and never make that resolute leap,

just go on being thankful you escaped, fated to remembering the time,

freedom almost had you.

More

 (For now, its more important to ignore rather than try to make sense of a dying culture.)

Some of us humans most precious inventions have been double edge swords, such as writing, guns, and money. Writing because lies can become permanently imbedded as truth, guns because we no longer are equal to the animals, thus rarely can be humbled by nature, and money because it’s only intrinsic value is a purely psychological acceptance of authority and power.

Women know that gossip, rumors, and deceit move more quickly and make more noise than truth does to the ears and intuition.

Men, on the other hand, don’t listen nor dance, so there is no difference between true or false. It’s whatever goes good with beer, pizza, and guns.

That’s why if you want people to listen, first tell a lie to get whatever attention you can, then tell the truth. The lie will make history, the truth will make weak tea.

Unproven Science Fact #1

We Humans are different under our skin, deep down inside our genes.

Not true.

We are products of our world environment, in the same way everyone’s acid trip is different than another’s.

I’m not born gay and not born straight.

I did not choose my skin color. My gender.

Yet things came to me because of one thing or another I possessed.

Nature did not care because whatever I was born with, will go with me when I die.

The world makes us. We don’t create the world except in a contrived way.

Laws, cities, technology will eventually go away. Look at troy, or the dial phone, even the b-52, and the mighty battleships of ww2.

manifested into responsibility, liberation, and security. All said with beautiful words and gestures

Israel Has the Nuclear Bomb.

There I said it,

Now everybody has to say it

Whenever we hear Israel say,

“Fuck you, we’ll do whatever we think god wants us to do.”

We have to stop thinking of Israel

As a bunch of sincere, frightened jews just trying to make

A living in a hostile world, different than the rest of us,

Rather than for what Israel really is,

Another hypocritical, cancerous government,

Mean and unprincipled, but assuming its existence is preternatural.