No Forgiveness

Why i cant forgive america although i am a white man and have never experienced any of the terrible events in my lifetime that were precipitated by the false, faked, infallibility of the american dream.

Yes, some may see me from the outside in, middle class, retired, comfortable but inside, a complex mixture of guilt, anger, fear, isolation, and a resounding moral standoff between my natural world and americas unnatural world that all of us are exposed to and manipulated by.

Its toxicity on everyones minds, hearts, and souls is all encompassing.

After much introspection, ive concluded some things that i have played out during the course of my life.

There are three historical events that stand out for me in which america, as a nation, manifested. This manifestation goes beyond americas supposed principles of rights for all turned out to be for some and none, especially if whatever ethnic, race, gender group, or other nation anyone belonged to. 

Those three are slavery, indigenous genocide/cleansing, and the holocaust. With these three, it is seen that even the apologies or changes connected to those events are merely provisional and specific to those historical realities and have not been applied to any universal humanitarian rights assumed for all. 

Im sure that representatives of the american political machine would distain any positive acknowledgement of slavery, native genocide, or the holocaust but, of course, they seem to be unable or, worse, unwilling to attribute any modern-day logic to current events.

This is demonstrated in the other historical events i felt were more than just political reactions to events inside and outside our nation but were symbolic and representative of an actual bent toward unhumanitarian, undemocratic, unfreedom universal principles by which america, as a nation saying it represented humanitarian, democratic, and freedom was anything more than a rhetorical ploy.

Those historical events were the viet nam war, the civil rights movement, 911 aftermath, and currently, the denial of genocide and acceptance of genocide as a formal principle ( that being the 'right of a nation, though not any nation, or in gaza's case, not a right of any people, to defend oneself).

Its ironic to me that a nation(s) who were somewhat complicit in the anti-semitism of the early twentieth century, the slavery of an earlier century, the apologetic of indigenous cleansing would barely bat an eyelash when an indigenous population, such as the people who live in palestine would be systematically, and it is systematic ( just ask any israeli military man), is entirely destroyed, meeting nearly all the agreed upon genocidal practices set up by their very own direction.

Over the course of centuries' the inclusion of more citizens from formerly isolated groups, such as the right of women to vote, the right of former slaves to some parts of freedom, and changing the definition of anti-semitism to include the criticism of the nation state of Israel, which those same western nations established over the rights of the indigenous population are pure opportunistically driven manipulations of the highest immorality. 

The rights of All we've been taught apply have never been All, they've always been opportunistically applied by the Masters of our species. It's always been the rights of them over the rights of us. 

As a white man i understand what freedom is giveth can easily be taken away. And i also know that every individual, no matter how rich or how poor will come to an end. Whatever happens in between is not reliant on how much money you make or throw away, not even reliant on whether you give or you take, kill or are peaceful, it's that unique, complex mix of fear, love, hate, good or bad ( if you even know what bad or good is) inside, that part where we all judge ourselves because thats the only judge there is despite all the attempts outside of us that tell or manipulate us. Everyone has a nugget of freedom and only we can change who we are or want to be, so, and i know it's not much, but a whole lot of 'not much' makes the world go around.

There are a lot of questions we should all have about not what we think somebody else should or should not do, but what are we going to do rather than just talk about doing?

I'm not forgiving america for what has been done and what it has been doing. I don't believe america has anything to contribute except death, blood on its hands, and irreparable harm to the earth, and, if anyone thinks that's too harsh, i'll just say, america leads the way and if we follow, then we can go over the cliff like a herd of mastodons or lemmings.

I'd rather be free because i think i know what free means to me. Everyone needs to think what it all means and what we will accept be taken and what we will give in return.

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