death #1

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Allred-Be careful what you'll die for.

Imagine, one breath more, is all he wanted, this fear, this colorless slime, this death passing before his eyes,

Invisible wisps of a life repulsed,

Hearkening us to return to our rituals,

Water on the forehead, shoulders, lips

Washing of our hands in absolution,

silent prayers of salvation, Sacrifices and retributions.

i doth confess,

Whateth now do i live for?

To merely survive? Pray for one more dawn to draw breath upon,

One last toast, held high, salutations

Regrets, none. Right now Life still abides willed strong,

Moments left to memorialize what I leave behind,

What Days ahead can i count on? Worship.

None are solidly promised, languid and ethereal hopes and fears, what any of us can dream,

What am i forgetting? What can I take with me?

Appreciate love I've been given, have never seen, forgive the lack of universal reconciliations,

Decide who to see one last time, if that moment arrives, To say goodbyes.

why are there these doubts about my living?

About These bluest skies i can remember,

With too little time left to say it all.

 

Who will walk the dog?

If its me who takes the last lonely ride,

Away from everything I've ever tried and failed, promised to live by, looked for and lost,

feared and loved at the cost

of my own selflessness and selfishness, the entire time believing Life is Beautiful. Less

And if it's any of you, life eternally missed,

I no longer contain my grief.

The end cometh, expect nothing less, 

Though i never will be ready. Never invited it, wanted it, expected it. It just came, like the wind,

Far off, silent and invisible,

Except for the whispering trees.


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